no use

there's no use in beeing sad, in feeling bad and mad at the world. there's really no use..
you know, it's ok to scream and cry, to die a little inside everyday, but at the end of the day you'll realize that life's good. it's good to be alive, to feel and to scream and cry.
at the end of the day, you'll realize that if only you would open up and feel, good things happen. no only to good people but to you, to everyone else.

it's real, good things happen all the time.

what happened?

you hurt me and i still go on. i don't feel like giving up (on myself) or anything. i just feel like i've got to live and i've got to go ahead and make my life happen.

even though it's not the happiest moment, i'm proud of myself. i have the heart of a lion.

forever alone? i got over it!

yes, that's just something i got over. i dealed with it.

it all comes from the idea that i'm good on my own, i feel good. i got friends (thank God!) and i can be whoever i want to be! like a drifter i was born to walk alone..
so from now on, i'm everything i could ever wish for. a free strong beautiful independent woman. so yeah, i'm raising my glass to ONE HELL OF A YEAR!

back in business

i wish these holidays would last longer. i seriously wish. i was starting to enjoy this lazy life, all day long in my jammies. and i was really starting to get creative and with good intentions to tidy up my room but i've got to get back to my routine tomorrow. already started packing and getting my stuff together so that i wont forget anything.

new year's eve wasn't as good as i wish it'd been. it was just.. fine. the atmosphere was amazing, just what i loved. but it was an atmosphere for friends, for crazy girls and for lovers. not for a girl with her parents, brother and two dumb guys! and i realized that i need fuel to dance freely. i need some alcohol pumping through my veins. yes, i do.

i still can't figure out if i'm meant to be lonely forever, if i don't want anybody even though i think i do or if i do want somebody after all. and that's just the eternal struggle with myself.. is this ever going to end?

now ladies and dudes, raise your glasses to ONE HELL OF A YEAR!
maria xx